In the Test of Time

Autobiography; The realities of life over-shadowed my emotions and beliefs. Never understanding my life or it's purpose caused entrapment and devastation. I endeavored to advance in areas that I considered an improvement in my quality of life. I went into relationships knowing very well the facts but denying those facts. I made up a life style with people who were not equipped for the role I desired. I wanted goodness in my life but the base instincts in me needed to be satisfied as well. I wanted goodness and evil to blend. Therefore, I joined wicked individuals and took part in activities with a lifestyle of material things for fulfillment. There was no mistake about my actions. My actions testified to what existed in me. The desires in me had to be satisfied. The big problem was that I had these good and bad issues within me. Those impulses could not come together equally in agreement, because each one served its own purpose. One inclination was good and prosperous; the other was bad and destructive. The revelation of life exposed the conflicts within me. No issue could stay hidden within me and I had to make a choice. The repercussions within my life made me aware of the choices I had made.