The Year of the Cock

How can you be open to love when you don't even love yourself?
Told by the people who know him best, The Year Of The Cock, is a year in the romantic growth of their best friend, Jon. He is that magical being that no one chooses to be, the third wheel. He is that still single friend constantly surrounded by couples that adore him and forgives him for every bad choice he makes.
Jon appears to have it all, except for the one thing he has never felt worthy of- love. How can he love someone else when he doesn't like the person staring back at him in the mirror? He knows he's constantly hurting the one person who would give absolutely anything to be his other half. But love means opening yourself up and Jon is not the vulnerable type.
Can he learn to love, to accept the messy truth of love and relationships? Will he finally become the person he has tried to repress his entire adult life; or will the year end with him stuck in the status quo of his gay bachelorhood? Alone and maybe this time with no one to put his pieces back together.